tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56351208467744636092011-04-21T10:44:29.048-07:00This blog is part of the ELCA "Free in Christ to Care for the Neighbor: Lutheran Youth Talk About Human Sexuality" Study. While "Ben" is only a vignette, we do hope that you will leave your comments and suggestions for this Differing View. For more information, please visit www.elca.org/faithfuljourney/youth/.Len Masonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15994961178430068734noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5635120846774463609.post-39732480196033327482007-11-28T13:52:00.000-08:002007-11-29T09:35:51.202-08:00Here I am again. The sad Sir Benjamin sitting alone on Friday night with nothing to do. I don’t know what happened. A few months ago I had so many options, I had to pick and choose what I was going to do on a Friday night. That was before everyone started “dating.” I swear to God, everyone I know is “dating” someone. What was wrong with the way things were before? I liked it better when we all used to hang out together and everyone was friends with everyone. We used to have so much fun. <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://blogs.elca.org/faithfuljourney-ben/uploaded_images/benCar-788897.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://blogs.elca.org/faithfuljourney-ben/uploaded_images/benCar-788890.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a>It seemed like there were always 20 of us hangin’ out together. Now I’m stuck at home with my family on a Friday night. How lame is that. Everyone else is out on a date with their girlfriend or on a “couples date”. I have no interest in having a girlfriend. I have so much other stuff I’m doing, I feel like I’d have to give it all up if I had a girlfriend. I’d rather be alone. I mean maybe someday, but not now. I thought about getting one, a girlfriend I mean, because everyone else has one. But whenever I put on the moves I make a fool out of myself. I end up feeling like an idiot. <br /> I’m starting to feel like I can’t relate to anyone anymore. Whenever I’m with the guys at school or in the locker room, they’re always talking about what they did with their girlfriend. Well, that or sex. I totally can’t relate to that. I’ve never had sex so I just sort of shut up when the subject comes up. Plus….well… my parents always taught me that it’s not right to have sex until you’re married. I can imagine how well that would go over with the guys if I ever actually brought that up. Am I the only one who thinks that? I’ll tell you one thing. Since everyone started having sex, I don’t seem to have many friends anymore. Like that became more important than friends. <br />What sucks the most is that I am just a few months from my Senior year of High School and I feel like it’s going to be the worst of my High School years. I can’t stand the thought of this being what my Senior year is going to be like, sitting at home all the time. Maybe I should try harder with the girls. Do girls want sex? Maybe if I had sex, I wouldn’t be alone all the time. <br />I don’t know…..I just want things back to the way they used to be.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5635120846774463609-3973248019603332748?l=bensblogg1.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Len Masonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15994961178430068734noreply@blogger.com0